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[Apr. 11th, 2006|05:59 pm] |
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I am 34% Idiot. I ain't too bright. But all those other idiots annoy the hell out of me. I may not be the brightest bulb in the bunch, but at least I know my limits. |
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| Ok ok... I'll update. |
[Feb. 16th, 2006|10:55 am] |
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-looks around- Huh... did everyone forget I had an LJ? Hn....
I used to write in here a lot... till i thought I was going to be moving out and I was all like, well fuck it.
Well things have dramatically improved. I must say.... I got to stay at home, but now I have to pay rent. Blargh. It was hard at first cause Disney cut hours major and I was barely pulling in 50 for two weeks. I did find a full time job, which is so choice. I am mad happy working there. Its Cartridge World, and I get paid well and I get at least a $500 check every two weeks. Fuckin awesome. I also have a brand new car. Thats right. Brand f'in new car! She's a Chevy Cobalt and her name is Mizuri O Ichi (Light Blue One in Japanese); I call her Mizu for short though. ^^
Thats it for now... more to come. But for now I must... work! |
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| I got the best valentine ever ^^ |
[Feb. 13th, 2006|11:36 pm] |
-smiles from ear to ear-
I couldn't ask for a better valentine.
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Fuck the update. I'll do it later. ^________^ |
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| Theres so much!! I'm thinkin... and m'head huurts. |
[Feb. 13th, 2006|03:33 pm] |
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So I thought wrong....
So sue me. Theres so much to update on. Lots of exciting things, adventures and stories to tell!
HOWEVER!!!
I'm at work... so...
You're just gonna have to wait.
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The suspense may now kill you! DUN DUN DUN! |
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[Jan. 18th, 2006|11:36 pm] |
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So I've become a drug addict... lol
Well not really anyways. I forgot I used to update this a lot more before... hn. Oh well.
So an update? Well theres the fact I'm still around. God only knows why... well actually I know why. Its cause I believe strongly I'll be missed. Which is doubtful. Minus... a few people. Love them like freaking so much. They're really helping out with shoulders, ears and all. I've actually decided on a real date to start moving. The 28th. Cause mom said once I move I'm out forever. She won't even let me come back for my shit. So I gotta do it in one swoop. So I made a plan to move when her and Doug go out of town. Which is the 28th through the 31st about... well I won't be moving that Saturday night. Apparently Scott and I are gonna try to get together and he's gonna spend the night here. I think... we all know how well he follows through. -sigh- If it doesn't happen I'll have no regrets about leaving. None.
Some good news is that Dad bought me a car. Used. Dodge Neon 95ish good condition, runs well and is fully automatic. Huzzah. So I can still come back and visit. When time allows and if the person that wants to hang out is worth the trouble. Yea, I've become a bitch over the past few days. Can't help it. -shrugs-
Today I went to ManPower so I could get this "full time job". It was a long process. Lots of paper work, computers and me just being stressed. Apparently theres this temp. job where I can make copies for 9 hours at 11 dollars per hour. Gotta be a catch. I didn't go into detail cause I wanted to avoid any commitment especially with me moving out. But maybe they can transfer all my paperwork to a location by dad so I can find a job out there. So yay for doing it anyways.
I'm really pissed. Fucking hell... I wanna yell it out but I gotta do it at the right time. Don't need any incidents. No good. But I gotta get it off my chest before I leave.
And I told Dan J I love him... well fuck. No idea where thats going or went. It was like a movie. He left me in the car and I decided in my head that it was a good idea to jump out of the car and tell him. I had a hard time getting the words out but he asked, "what...? Do you love me?" And I said it. -sigh- He didn't answer though. Just asked why. Fucking men and your whys. Like I need a reason to fall in love. I can if I want. If things made sense then Benjamin Franklin wouldn't have flown that kite in a fucking lightning storm. Uh duh. I love him for being him, for being true to himself, for treating me like a real person, not a piece of ass, for not teasing me, for being handsome, intelligent, funny, and easy to talk to. Theres a few... its not lust cause I couldn't care less if we got physical. Really. Its all about being around him.... but I doubt he cares now.
I doubt anyone really does. I'm gonna perform the best disappearing act on the face of this planet and I don't have an audience. Fine.
Fuck you then.
I still love the people that stuck with me who can say I love you without question or agenda. You all should know who you are. |
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| An update!! |
[Jan. 9th, 2006|05:20 pm] |
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So yea... -sigh- I'm so tired.
The weekend was uber fun though. Friday I got to hang out with dad then I went over to Brit's and spent the night. We got called around 10pm by Billy who asked us to go to midnight bowling. So we wnet. Got picked up by Danny, Eric and Eric. Billy, Stacy, Corey, Donovan and a few others were there. It was really fun. Poor Bunny and I got abused. But oh well. Afterwards we went to Denny's. Lots of talk about sex there. Hope no one there got scared. Too bad for them. :P Then Eric, Danny, Brit and I went to Danny's house. tee hee Then Eric was nice to take us home. We got to bed around 5:30am. The next morning Brit and I went to her Massage Clinic. It was interesting and I'm glad she's finally coming back home.
After that Krys picked me up and we hung out at the apartment for a while, then we decided to go bowling. We picked up Jen and Brit and went to Brunswick Zone out by Stratford. We went back to the aprtment for a bit and played with the lights then Tony called and wanted us to to go to Ding Dong Dang (a karaoke bar; like in the animes) and we dropped Brit off before going there. Then we sang a few times. We then drove Tony with us home and he thought it was a bad idea to have three in the front seat, but the car was made for that, he didn't believe us so when we got home Krys showed him the middle seat belt and he was like, well shit the bed. lol So good times. I had to be home Sunday morning and I went tp work from 2pm to 7pm.
Today I had to go to work from 10 till 2:30. It was 2 but they had to keep me for a bit cause they cut everyone's hours so much so that it was gonna be Maria and Carmen till 4pm alone. So I stayed. Anything for a bit more in the paycheck.
Other than that. I found out Dan J was in the hospital at Alexian. I knew something must've been up. I was really worried about him. I wanna tell him how I feel now... cause its changed. I think I'm in love with him. Well... we'll see. I may decide not to. -sigh-
Well I'm off to fix myself some dinner. Lets hope this week gets a bit more exciting! woot! |
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| I'm still here |
[Jan. 4th, 2006|08:45 pm] |
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So I haen't updated in a while. I guess I feel no need. Shits been hitting the fan so often its like I don't feel like telling everyone if they already don't know. Or something like that...
Well the thing is that I am currently living with my parents. I know was saying I'd be moved out by mid December but I love it here. I'd miss everyone way too much. Plus its not like i can move in with Krys, Tony and Jimmy cause Tony hit Krys this one day. She hit him back, but thats unhealthy for them to be in and even worse for me to be around. Plus the way we wanted to set up my room where the dining table is Jimmy and Tony both thought it was "gay." Whatever. Hopefully Krys will move out of there soon (or kick Tony out) cause I'm beginning to really hate the way he's been treating her.
I wanna move in with dad so badly but I'd miss all my friends. Well probably not a few people now since they seem to be forgetting who were the ones they came in with. Pft. Not like anyone would really care I'm sure. I know who would. And those are the only people I'm sticking around for.
My job cut hours like... a lot. I was working nearly 40 hours a week during the holidays. Now its barely 20. Its ok I guess cause now I have more free time. But bad cause when I do have free time the evil ones want me to look for a full time job. No one is hiring right now so I don't know why they think I can go anywhere and get a full time job pull benefits by the 15th. Its ridiculous. Fucking idiots. I am trying Bed Bath and Beyond so hopefully that works out. Mom said they're buying me a car supposedly. Whatever... I don't want any fucking handouts from these assholes. If they think a shiney new car will get my ass into gear to find this dream job they're sorely mistaken. Fucking I don't give a damn anymore.
The only thing thats kept me sane these past few weeks was the holidays and seeing my friends and various memembers of my family. Like when Meg was here. We had fun times. I spent a few days here and there with dad which made me happy. I also got to see Derek, Betsy and Abby. Abby's getting bigger. And I can't wait till she grows up. ^_^ Spent the rest of my time with all my buds doing stuff. Brit and Jay came home so I was very happy to see them. Jay and I christened the Nissan too. lol And I've just been enjoying hanging out with everyone. Dan went MIA though... haven't talked to him in a long time. I really miss hanging out with him. I got to see Gil and Shelley! Yay! Gil's as handsome and nice and sexy and -sigh- as ever. I wanna say to him how I feel but I'm afraid. I really am. I cried one night thinking about him. It sucks to still feel this way about him after so long.. I guess a first crush never really goes away. hn And Shelley, D, Krys and I all hung out at the apartment one night. That was fun.
Whats not so fun now is how uncertain the future looks. I haven't made any new years resolutions... besides staying alive. I suppose thats not a bad thing. Its realistic. A bit depressing, but eh... what are you going to do.
The things that keep me going are my friends, a few select family memebers and Gushers. lol Peace out for now my children. |
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[Dec. 18th, 2005|05:55 pm] |
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Hello all. -waves- Yea... sorry about the lack of updates. I've just been getting my shit sorted and fixed. Not literally... eww.
So lesse.... uhhh Wednesday I went to work then I went to Diamond Billiards with Jen and Mike. We met up with my new boy toy Ted there. When he came in I was like, omg he's so cute and hot... and dear lord... he's got no knees! lol No. I was just shocked he was shorter than me. I didn't mind though. So I beat Mike in pool once then Ted beat me. After we were done we went to Taco Bell to get food, but they were closed inside, so we just left. I went home with Ted of course. tee hee. So we went to his apartment and had a romp. heh Not just any romp a good one. ^^ I had some difficulty keeping quiet. lmao TMI right? Ok well moving on. I got home and went to bed around 2am. Happy Birthday self. lol
Thursday was my b-day! Joooy! I'm so 20 now. Can't wait till next year. hehe I got to see Krys, Dan and Jen. And dad too. I met him at Red Lobster and opened up my presents. I got a cute set of penguins, a scarf and gloves from Aunt Beryl in England, cookies, Scrapped Princess volumes 1,2 and 4m, then RENT and Fall Out Boy on cd! Needless to say I was gleeful. After that, Krys and I just hung out around the apartment for a bit before Jimmy had to take her to work. Then after that I called up Dan, who was home sick for the day and we went to the mall together. I wanted to buy myself some stuff but I was like... I dunno if Dan will think I'm spoiled or something. Oh well. Good thing I saved up. I saw this beautiful dress at the Totally Wedding store and I was talking to myself about my prom and how I didn't have a date. Dan looked at me and he said, well would you wanna go to my prom? I asked him if he was joking, but he didn't say anything. Needless to say I was glad to be wearing makeup... or else I would've been beet red. The thought has crossed my mind a few times. I would love to go to prom again and do it "right" this time. I even still fit in one of my old dresses from turnabout junior year, its really pretty and we never got a picture of me in it. Damn shame too cause it looks smoking on me now. lol We still need to do anti-prom too. I'll have to get that set up for when Brit's here. And yes, formal wear is a must! ^_^ So after I dropped Dan off back home, he just gave me a hug. -sigh- I guess birthday wishes only come true if they're realistic. And as a side note: He always smells really good. Always. And my car smelled like him for a day. lol So then I went to Jen's to hang out cause I was supposed to get together with Scott. Well Jen and I watched tv for a while, and he never called me back. So I left her house at 11 and drove back home all by myself. I got really depressed and sad. I really wanted him to prove himself. Guess not...
Well there's lots more to post about, but I've got work tomorrow from 9 till 5:30. Fucking hell. I'll be needing a shit load of sleep. Byes for now. |
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[Dec. 5th, 2005|08:36 pm] |
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Hello all. Yes its been awhile. Thought I'd update. Since I'm bored... well that and I don't feel like taking on the daunting task of writing up a fake draft for my English paper for my parents. v-v I'm sleepy.
So... things seemed ironed out with Krys, dad and work. Just gotta tell mom after my b-day. That should be fun.... -_-;;
Working all this week. No chances to ditch and go see friends cause I have no more money till Thursday. I hope the checks come in then. Thats the other crisis...
With Christmas coming up, its hard to imagine how I ever got through it the last few years. I mostly use any and usually all the money from my b-day to get presents for everyone. Sometimes it pays off on way or another, other times I wish I'd have stabbed them before I had given them a present. I just wish my b-day this year would be a little better.... a real b-day. Where I don't have to spend on so many ungreatful people. But I'm too nice. Unfortunately...
Thats another thing... I think Dan hates me... it could be just Neil being an ass like usual... but some part of me can see how much he doesn't want to be around me.
Why can't things work out for me just for once? Why do I fuck up so much? Why can't I be smarter? Why can't I be a good student? A daughter? A friend? Why is it that I'll have to sacrifice everything I love and hold dear here and move away so I can be "happier?" Why does it hurt....?
I don't wanna feel anymore....
No more.
I tear my heart open,
I sew myself shut.
----My weakness is...
That I care too much.----
And our scars remind us,
That the past is real.
I tear my heart open,
Just to feel. |
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[Dec. 3rd, 2005|08:34 am] |
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Hey all. I guess I've forgotten to update... heh... I think I mya have taken a stab at it awhile ago then schluffed it off, like I do with most things.
Well here... since I'm sure you're all dying to know whats been going on in my life...
Tuesday was my first eventful day. I ditched all my classes and went over to UBB's to hang oyut with him and Stacey. I was feeling depressed, suicidal and really really bored. So I decided instead of indulging my masochist side I'd indulge my inner Id. Huzzah. So we hung and went to Burger Hut. Good food. Then we went to Lovers Lane where I bought Bunny a real working glow in the dark condom! WOO! And Billy bought female inhancing cream... hope that works out for you UBB. kikiki So then we went to Gadgets Galore! OMG Best fucking store ever! I found a bunch of crap I so want. Pointy objects, pyro shit... Lots of the T-shirts are funny. And I found a knock off Sailor Moon wand! Its so cute. I want it. lol Just to have it. Then we went back to UBB's sat around for awhile and decided to get the pictures developped on UBB's disposable camera so we went there dropped of all his film (from like... years ago) and my film. Then we all went to Game Stop. Good times. Theres a lot of Anime there that I sooo want. Mirage of Blaze... -dies- Such a pretty Anime... -drools- So then i had to go pick my mom up and I went home.
On Thursday after I found out my French class was cancelled (-gasp-) I went and hung out with Krys and Jen. I showed the Gadgets Galore (GG). And needless to say... they were very very happy. lol I bought my dad a Jim Morrison poster that is like.. way cool. And a dancing swirling penguin!! His name is Popper! ^^ Jen bought some pointy object... and Krys bought a bunch of rolling stuff. lol After that I took Krys to work. Then... I went home. Not so very eventful... but we did spend a good 2 hours in GG.
Yesterday I hung out with Dad (I was supposed to be at work... but I called in sick) at Red Lobster and Julie bought me this awesome Penguin blanket and penguin socks. I was uber happy. And dad bought me Madacascar and The March of the Penguins on dvd! YAY! ^_^ I hung out with Krys and we DDRed our butts off. We did so good. I had fun. And the guy that works the balloon game (we did that twice) is way cute. And his name is Carl. ^^ I gave him a gummy lizard cause he couldn't get a lap dance from Krys. lol Then we went back to Krys and drank a little... ok not a little... a lot. ^^; I'm amazed I could drive home. Went to bed around 1amish... and now...
Now I'm at school... gotta go to Math class. Blargh. Okies... well i'll talk to y'all later!
-kissu!- ^-^ Byes! |
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[Nov. 26th, 2005|12:21 am] |
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Hello all. How was your Turkey day? hmm? Uneventful? Drad? Yea... same here.
Well nothing much to report besides the fact that Julie got a new puppy. A Jack Ryssel Terrier and her name is Patches. She is way cute. ANd oh yeah. I saw Harry Potter and The Goblet of Fire. Really good movie. Really. I watched Madacascar twice and worked my tail off at work today.
even though today was Black Friday everything went actually... pretty well. I was happy at the lack of customers. But I was pissed at the new manager towards the ned when she said I was spending too much time on t-shirts... and of course did I get a thanks or great job for my spectacular work on all the shirts (that I did by myself)? No. Of course not. I want a freaking golden star or a trophy... damn it! ><
Well I think I've decided... even though I love being here and everything I love and cherish is here... I can't stay here. I KNOW for a fact that I will fail English 102. And that means I'm out of the house, I've been preparing myself for the past couple weeks and I am bound and determined to make this the best last month of my life here. I'll visit every so often, but it won't be the same, everytime I think about it I cry and I know how much I'll miss you all. Krys and Jen especially. The two people in my life that really stuck by me and held my hand no matter what. I'll miss you all though. Even any of you that aren't here. ^^ It'll be tough... but they say distance can strengthen or break a friendship. I think its only going to get better from here.
So what to do about everything here? Well I've determined that all my crap will have no problem transitioning to my dad's seeing how Julie and Shane moved and all. My job is a bit on the tipsy side. I may want to move in with Krys till the holidays are over so I can make a secure transfer to a Disney Store out by my dads. My future... well I never really wanted to be a teacher... I really wanted to be a cosmotologist. So... if I save up enough maybe by next fall I can go to cosmo school. We'll see. Friends will never be the same... but you all have your lives and I'll have mine (working all the time I think) and we'll all see each other on the weekends. I don't want to forget any of you. ^_^
Its hard... but I'm ready. I'm tired of this life. I'm ready for a new direction. This is what I want. |
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[Nov. 21st, 2005|04:14 pm] |
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1. What is your occupation? Sales Associate at The Disney Store in Old Orchard
2. What color is your underwear? Right now its... black.
3. What are you listening to right now? The cds Jay burned for me.
4. What was the last thing you ate? A piece of gum still in progress. tee hee
5. Do you wish on stars? Occasionally. There was a shooting star that Bunny let me wish on. ^^
6. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? Red. lol
7. How is the weather right now? Cold.. but better than most days.
8. Last person you spoke to on the phone? Dan, last night before I went to bed.
9. Do you like the person who sent this to you? I borrowed it from Meeshe so yea. ^^
10. Favorite drinks? Pepsi, Milk and Crystal Light
11. Favorite sport to watch? Baseball. Oh yea
12. Have you ever dyed your hair? Yea. Red twice, brown three times and now its got light blonde streaks.
13. Do you wear contacts or glasses? glasses so I can see far
14. Pets? One. A cat named Anya. -cuddles her- ^-^
15. Favorite month? December cause its cold and barely any sun so I don't get burnt, plus my b-day, Christmas and New Years!
16. Best day of your life? Theres so many... I'd have to say the best was the weekend my parents were gone and Jay came over and I partied at Krys' one night. tee hee
17. What was the last movie you watched? With Corey it was this old horror movie.
18. Favorite day of the year? My b-day! hehe
19. What do you do to vent anger? Go to a batting cage and hit softballs around.
20. What was your favorite toy as a child? my American Girl dolls. I still have them! ^^
21. Fall or Spring? Fall. Less sun and cooler.
22. Hugs or kisses? Hugs cause everyone can give and get them!
23. Cherry or Blueberry? Cherry. yum yum
24. Do you want your friends to fill this out? If they read my LJ... -growls-
25. Who is most likely to respond? Probably quickie18. She's like the only one that reads my LJ anymore.
26. Who is least likely to respond? Everyone else... lol
27. Living arrangements? I live with my parents most of the time, but the rest is with dad on occassion and with Krys and Jen.
28. When was the last time you cried? Saturday night before I went to sleep.
29. What is on the floor of your closet? Bags, shoes and boxes of stuff... lol
30. Who is the friend you have had the longest? Longest is Meeshe
31. What did you do last night? I spent it with Corey. Fun times...
32. Favorite smell? Axe and Very Sexy (A Victoria's Secret perfume)
33. What inspires you? Everyone and everything really.
34. What are you afraid of? Darkness, heights, deep water, being alone, loud noises
35. Plain, cheese or spicy hamburgers? Spicy and cheesy! tee hee
36. Favorite car? The one I'm driving. lol
37. Favorite dog breed? Golden Retriever/Irish Setter mix. -nods-
38. Number of keys on your key ring? Well they're not really my keys... but I have one key to the house in my purse attached to a long chain and it has a keychain that says I found a boy in Illinois. lol
39. How many years at your current job? I started in June.
40. Favorite day of the week? Thursday. It stands for the planet Jupiter. My sign. ^^
41. How many states have you lived in? 1
42. How many cities have you lived in? uhh 4? |
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[Nov. 21st, 2005|01:38 pm] |
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Hello all. -waves- Hopefully everyone had a really good weekend! ^^ I know I did.
Thursday afternoon my dad picked me up. We went to Taco Bell before we went over to my grandparents' house. Then we took Grandma to dinner at Perkins. After that we dropped her off back at home, then dad and I went to Wal-Mart and bought the DVD of Madagascar. I looove that movie. ^^ Especially the penguins! Smile and wave boys, smile and wave. whee! So we went home and watched that, ate cookies and I colored in this awesome fuzzy poster dad got for me. He know how much I love coloring and all that art stuff. Julie and Shane came over to watch part of the movie, and they liked it too. Then they left and dad and I watched the Hulk. It was actually really good. I remember when it came out how much everyone said how bad it was. It was really good. Dad thinks he's the Hulk. lol So then we went to bed around 2am. Cause we're fun like that.
Friday I woke up at noon, took a bath and then we went to dad's work to pick up and cash his check, then we went to lunch and went shopping for a bit. After that we went back home and called up Juile to go out. We went to the movies and I really wanted to see Harry Potter, but of course it was sold out. I was a bit down, but then dad suggested going to the Pizza Hut in Delevan! Which is my fave Pizza Hut cause one of the waiters there is so hot! And here's the interesting part, he's deaf. Which I think is cool. I know him cause we've been going to that Pizza Hut since I was like 9. So I think he's been there for at least 4 years. So we ate, went to Wal Mart and bought Constantine. Yayness. I also got AH! My Goddess the new series! Its the same, but different... lol cause the animation is better and the storyline actually follows the manga. Then we went home, watched Constatine and went to bed.
Saturday dad woke me up at 5 and took me home so I could go to class at 8. After class I came home and did chores and cleaned. Then Krys came over around 3 and we went out. We got gas and did a few errands. We even went to Sam's Club which is God's gift to the poor fat blonde girl. lol Then I decided we should go to GameWorks. And Dan called, so we invited him. When we got there I had changed my shirt, but forgot my cell in the car, so we went back to the car, got my cell and Krys changed into better clothes. Then we went back in and met up with Dan and Dan L. They mostly followed us and Krys and I played DDR. Dan watched us a few times and I was nervous... I don't like it when cute guys watch me... Then we went dowstairs and played basketball stuff. I couldn't throw any baskets so Dan leaned over and asked if I wanted help and I was like sure. Krys kept yelling at me and teasing me afterwards that I "cheated." I was like... well he asked and I thought ok... heh Anyways! So then we played both of them in air hockey and Krys and I won! ^^ We even found a card on the floor that had credits on it! So Dan and I went upstairs and played pool while Krys played the bowling game. Dan L played the Capcom vs Marvel game the entire time. While I was playing pool with Dan he took off his shirt and he was wearing this tank top... he looked way hot. I was like... O.o dear lord... I can't concentrate if he looks like that. But I did play good... I just lost 3 times. lol Then we Krys and left and we went to the apartment and hung out with Tony. I got to talk to Dan on the phone for a bit and before I hung up he said that it was nice seeing me and that I looked beautiful. I was shocked and needless to say... very very flattered. I wonder if he means something by that? I asked him if he was lying and he said no. Then I went to sleep around 11 and woke up at 3 when Jimmy came home. Then I drank with Tony and Jimmy till 6 and we all went to bed. I even called a few people drunk. lol
The next morning Krys took me home and I did chores all day. Around 3 though I hung out with Corey, We went to a Chinese Buffet and I didn't eat cause I had already eaten. Then we went to his house and hung out and watched movies. So... we uhh did stuff. -blushes- QUIET. And afterwards when he took me home I asked him if he wanted to just see how things go. He said ok. I honestly don't want to start a relationship quite yet... I guess we both don't. We'll see where it goes... but he did say something about any random guy could run up to me stick his dick in me and claim me as his. I laughed and said I would never even consider letting any guy do that. I'm on reserve for now. ^_^ But.. I am a bit confused. On one hand, Corey's a really great guy and I was blind not to see that, but I can't help but wonder if I'd hurt someone... Then theres the fact that I still like Dan... I mean thats something that I know for sure will never happen, but I can't help but think its a possibility. geh... Why is this all so difficult?
I've got work today from 6 till 10. How come no one visits me? -pouts- Hm. Oh well.
Thanksgiving is this weekend! Woo. Should be interesting right? I'm going to my dad's on Wednesday then coming back on Friday before I have to go to work at 2:30... gah its gonna be hell. V_V I hate the holidays sometimes. I'm working till close and God only knows how late that'll be until. eehhhh Then Sunday hopefully I can work the early shift so I can be here at home for when we have Thanksgiving. I really wanna see Abby! ^_^ Oh and I get to invite a friend! Mom said maybe even two. I hope I can get either Dan or Corey... hmm we'll see right?
Laters for now children. |
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[Nov. 19th, 2005|08:43 am] |
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If you can read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, please post a comment with a memory of us - even if we don't speak very often. It can be anything you want, good or bad.
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[Nov. 17th, 2005|09:55 am] |
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Hello children.
Here's an update for y'all.
Ok.. its cold. Yeah, cold. You heard me. And not just the brrrr kinda cold where I can wear a hoodie and get away with being kinda sweaty and still hot. No no no. This is the kinda cold that makes me realize my panties are frozen and my fingers are so numb that when I finally warm them up, they tingle and feel broken. Yes. That cold. I'm never cold. The worst was yesterday when I went to work. See, since the store moved, we're located in the middle of one block of the mall. So basically you can go down one side and it'll be the same distance as going down the other. Right in the fucking middle. And its not like we can use the back door cause that woul be bad and the managers would be... needless to say pretty peeved. So I suffer... oh well. Yesterday at work was the worst. I was there for 5 hours doing what? You guessed it. A whole bunch of nothing. Since we're an outdoor mall, we rarely get any business on weekdays during the colder months. But rest assured, the day after Thanksgiving and the day after Christmas we will be packed. Yes... all the damn Northshore assholes will be shopping in our store. And parking... fucking Christ. I'll have to go to work 2 hours in advance to even THINK of getting a parking space. And probably not a decent one. No no, it'll be 20 miles away and of course the weather will be delightful. Note the sarcasm... But back to yesterday... so we get a shipment in and its about 20-40 boxes. No big deal. But then Diane gets a call that another shipment is coming and it has... get this... over 300 boxes. Yes... So the girls in the back unloaded the truck. And by the time it was time for me to leave at 5, my locker was blocked (as well as everyone elses lockers) by 5 stacks with over 7 plus on each. An avalanche could happen at any moment. And space. Pfft. Forget that. There was no space even during my break when I could sit and eat my soup bowl. I almost couldn't get to the microwave. There was only enough room cleared to walk through the back by the time I left. -sigh- They wanted me to stay till close to help open boxes, but I was like... uh no. I've got studying to do. A lie... but I think they'd expect me to finish the entire shipment. Since you should process approximately 20 boxes an hour. And with the others in back... they would've pushed it. But no. No no no. I didn't go to coffee with Bernie either. First off cause he didn't have to come into work cause he was only an on call. Plus I had my phone off so I didn't get his message till I left work. And I was like, you know, lets do this when its not so cold and late and when my sanity is whole. So i went home and to bed. Thank Goddess.
So today... today I'm worried. About English I haven't gone to the past three classes. -sigh- I know I will fail this class. So I've been thinking a lot about moving in with dad. If I per chance get a passing grade, then, no worries. But now that all I have are Jen and Krys on the weekends, all I want is to start fresh. I wanna do something else. I don't want to be a teacher like I thought I did. I just wanna work a minimum wage job and go to Cosmotology school. I wanna do hair, nails... I don't want to have my life plotted out over the next ten years. I wanna live for the now. It seems weird, but in World religions we're studying Taoism and its interesting. I wanna say I'm gonna live by that and learn it, but to know Tao is to not know at all. I don't want to be confined to this box. Maybe I can go back to school when i feel ready... but right now I wanna have fun.
Speaking of fun I'm seeing dad this weekend. I'm so excited about that. No joke. Then Saturday if Krys can get off work, we're having a big party. Tony wanted to apologize for how he was last weekend so we are so getting smashed off our asses. And maybe I can try to see how Jimmy feels. -shrug- We'll see. Then maybe do something with Corey on Sunday... possibly something with UBB. Hey.. I wanna meet your gf you silly asian!! >0<
An on that note I just wanna say how much I love sleeping in my car. Usagi has become a permanent resident in my car as my head pillow. So comfy. ^-^ And my quilt has taken residence in my trunk. Very useful since its so cold. Y'all should come to my school and like knock on the car door and be like, "Yo Shwee! I wanna take a nap with you!" ^_^ I'd gladly share. wooo
So laters till next time children... which might be after the weekend considering how hectic it'll be.
Where's you will to be weird? -Jim Morrison |
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[Nov. 15th, 2005|02:16 pm] |
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Hello all. Which is really all of three or four people... anyways!
I trust everyone is well and that your weekends went swimmingly? Thats good. ^^ Well lesse... We should probably start off with Friday. -nods-
Friday was the second day I went to help out at the new store. When I got there at 1:30, I went out onto the floor and everything looked so much better than what it did on Wednesday. Granted there were a few things that still needed to be put up, but it looked a boat load better than it did. So from about 2 till 5 I worked on folding shirts, learning how to use the new cash register, and doing a few odd jobs around the store for the managers. All in a good days work. I was extra happy cause I got my check there, rather than in the mail. So then we had a big meeting with all of the cast memebers and managers. We got to have pizza and needless to say I was very happy cause it was free. Huzzah! So then Kathy and Diane did this big presentation on how we should act and what to do, since the holidays are coming and we're gonna be ten times more busy than ever. We got into groups (I was with Joanna, Lori, Mansel, Christy, Bernie and Char) and we had to write on these pieces of paper all this stuff about ourselves and the store. We had a big group so when it asked how many years of schooling we had combined we had 107 1/2 years. Then when we did previous jobs. And right before we had to present Char whispered something to Joanna, she laughed and went up to present our 2 thats right 2 sheets (we're over achievers lol) and for a previous job she said, "Oh yeah and a hooker." Everyone started laughing it was way too funny. Everyone thought I had put that but then I pointed to Char and I was like, no no, it's her. Everyone got a good laugh. After that Kathy was talking to us about how we feel when we hear elevator music and of course thats slow, bored... so then she put that on and she was like, how do you feel? Well tired and bored. Ok, so then she was like, now what do you feel when you hear this song? She put on the Cha Cha Slide! I was like... eeeeeeeee! I'm good at this song! So I danced along with it and when it got to the how low can you go? part I went to the floor on my knees then laid my back down on the floor. Everyone was so shocked, and I got up gracefully and everyone was like, wow, Ashley! Omg... I can't believe you did that. Bernie even took a picture with his camera phone. I was like... gah! Blackmail! hehe So then after we finished up the meeting I went home.
Saturday morning I woke up and went to my Math class. I got to use mom's SUV. I was happy about that cause she has a cd player and I got to listen to Sugar, We're Going Down like... 5 times. I left early though so I could go to Currency Exchange and cash my check, then I picked up a plastic mat for my cat cause she's been getting into the habit of leaving pieces of her food on the floor and Doug and I put carpet in Friday morning (5:30 in the morning! ><) and he doesn't want the food to stain his carpet. Whatever. So I got that and went back home by 12:30 so I could go to work at 2. Doug drove me there cause parking at the mall on the weekends is a bitch. And of course he was bitching about how I should use the car... he's the one who never wants me to use the car...? Whatever. I got to work and it was crazy! So busy... I stayed till close, but I got to leave early cause Krys came to pick me up. When she came to the door, Kathy was like, "Who's that?" I was like, "Does she have short black hair? And is she jumping up and down? OH!!! THAT'S MINE! THAT'S MINE!" So Krys and I left the mall around 10:30 and we decided to go to the movies. We wnet and saw Zathura. It was really good. Plus there was a hot guy in there that reminded me a lot of Gil. I was squealy... needless to say. hehe So after that we went to the apartment and watched a new anime Krys got. I dun remember the title... but she's gonna let me borrow it the next time I see her. We were gonna get ready for bed cause I had to be home by 9 cause I had to work at 11. It was around 2ish, then when I got into bed with Krys (cause neither of the boys were home yet) I noticed that when I had spilled some of my Iccee from the movies on my hand, I had wiped it off, but there was still some on my hands! I went to the sink and tried to wash it off, but it seriously stained my skin! I was like... sonofabitch! Then Tony came into the bathroom cause Krys and I were there and he was sooo drunk. So drunk that he locked himself in the dog cage and beforehand he jumped me on the couch and bit my neck! And it hurt too! While he was in the cage, Jimmy said something about Tony's brain, then I said, yeah, what's left of it and he got really pissed (he gets pissed at anything when he's drunk). And he stormed out of the room and on his way he hit the sliding mirror in the hallway. I was scared, but then Krys, Jimmy and I started talking about stuff. When Tony came back out he grabbed Krys' hair. Then she yelled at him and he was yelling at her and me. He went back to the room and on his way started hiting the sliding mirror again, this time he broke it and pieces fell all over the floor and the mirror was like... broke. He came back after Krys and Jimmy picked up the mess and he was calling us both bitches, he even called me a fat bitch and he kept hitting the glass table in front of me (I was so freaked out cause I know he broke a glass table before). And I kept flinching cause I was like... scared out of my mind. Then finally Krys was like, well we're going to bed cause Ash has to go home early in the morning. So Krys and I slept in their bedroom on the bed. I laughed a bit saying its been a long time since we've both slept in the same bed.
Sunday we woke up around 8:45 and I drove us to my house, I called work and pretended to be sick. I didn't feel up to working 8 plus hours on only 4 hours of sleep. Plus I knew Doug would have a shit load of things for me to do around the house. When I got home I started doing my laundry, did the dishes, fed and cleaned the cat's stuff and cleaned up my room. Then I started to study. After that I vaccumed the upstairs, helped Doug glue a part of the carpet ad move stuff back into the basement. I even helped him put togetehr part of a shelf. At 1 I went to sleep and woke up around 5. I ate dinner, then Doug and I finished the shelf. I went to bed around midnight...
So Monday Doug had to go to an appointment for a glucose test at this hospital and it was supposed to last 3 hours or so. So he took the Nissan and left me with mom's SUV (woo hoo). He left around 6:30 and I slept in and didn't go to my American Government class (I was way too tired) and instead woke up Billy. We decided to hang out, but by the time I got there, he was still asleep. So when he let me in, he went right back to his bed. -growls- So I had to wake him up. And then he started changing in front of me and I freaked and left the room and closed his curtain. He was like, they're just boxers. -shrug- Maybe I'm more modest now. Then we went to Denny's and talked about stuff. It was fun, not as exciting as other times we've done stuff, but fun none-the-less. I had to pay for the lunch cause they couldn't take Billy's card. He thanked me a lot. And I got a few hugs. huzzah So then I went home and got ready for work, got there at 1:30 and worked till 10:30. Only cause some girl forgot to come in. I was way beyond pissed cause I wanted to go home. Plus, my coworker Bernie wanted to hang out with me. I was like, sure. But I think he likes me... more than in just a friend sense. ^^; He's a nice guy, but no one I see myself dating. Is it a crime to have standards? No. So sod off then. But he says he wants to buy me coffee after work on Wednesday when we work together again. -sigh- Well i'll let you all know how that goes.
Jeez... long post? heh Well kinda tired.. and I gotta go to a meeting with a couselor here at school in 30 mins. Gotta find out what my future holds. whee... And then I'm going home.
Good news, I'm going to my dad's this weekend! Wow. Its been a long long time since I've been out there. Then hopefully I can see peoples this weekend (cause I don't got no work! wooooo!). Well here's to a good rest of the week and a good weekend.
THE SEXY WATCH! DEAN IS SOOO HOTT!!! WATCH SUPERNATURAL TONIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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| A contest! ooo This took me a long time to think up... |
[Nov. 11th, 2005|10:15 am] |
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You have been invited to compete to win the prestigious title of my "Ex-Boyfriend/Girlfriend".
Rules for entry are simple:
1. Must be a first-time applicant. You are not eligible to compete if you have previously entered the contest regardless of the outcome. If you have previously won my "Ex-Boyfriend/Girlfriend" contest.... Give me back my sanity you psycho!!! ><
2. Applicants must be between the ages of 17-29 and have a full head of hair. Medical regeneration of hair is acceptable, as is a shaved head (bearing in mind you still have the ability to grow hair). Toupees however, will be snatched off of your head and stepped upon in mud and dog poopy along with your dignity.
3. Applicants must have a job. Mc-jobs are allowable if you are a suffering artist, musician, writer, or the next dalai lama waiting to be discovered.
4. Criminal background is not an automatic disqualifier.
5. Psychological background including but not limited to schizophrenia, panic attacks, dementia, attention deficit disorder, hypochondria, oedipus complex, and unresolved childhood issues are automatic disqualifiers.
As the next winner of my "Ex-Boyfriend/Girlfriend" contest, I will accompany you to an unlimited number of breakfasts, lunches and/or dinners and amuse you with my interesting wit and banter.
You will also be entitled to have beer, wine, cocktails at various parties and drive both of our drunk asses home where we then would have wild, hot bunny-rabbit sex (not just while we're drunk, but anytime I so desire).
Final perk of the coveted title is: the bragging rights you'll earn of dating a sexy, intelligent extremely funny girl. Dating me will make you look hip, stylish, and a bit rebel-ish without really pissing off your friends and family.
The contest is open only for a limited time and rules and regulations may change anytime at my sole discretion.
(Friends and families of previous "Ex-Boyfriend/Girlfriend" winners are not eligible to enter the contest cause I'm no whore.)
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[Nov. 10th, 2005|11:19 pm] |
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(talking about christians and mass suicide, jumping into the Grand Canyon)
You just gotta help them... -kicks the air- Go on you fanatical fuck!!! He's down there!
George Carlin |
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[Nov. 8th, 2005|03:45 pm] |
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Hello all. -waves-
Gots some juicy updates for ya. Woo hoo!
So yesterday I came home, studied till about 2 (for real this time cause I have a big test in American Government tomorrow). Then I watched 3 movies. Yes. Three. I first watched Boys and Girls. Good movie... cute and romantic. Then I watched Loser. Cute, romantic and funny. Then I watched Sleeping Beauty. Yes... Sleeping Beauty. Yea, I know. Shut it. What can I say? I was bored. After I had gotten done with Boys and Girls Doug told me to come downstairs and read my mail. It was a letter addressed from the college. I was like... oh shit... I didn't do it. So I started walking away as I opened it, but then I walked back cause Doug was like, I wanna see it. I pulled out the letter inside and I started to read it, Dear Ashley, Congratulations! (-blink blink-) You have been recommended for the Honors Program at Oakton Community College by Professor Ingrid Torinus (my World Religions prof.). Your performance in her course in the Fall semester is excellent. She believes you would excel in the Honors Program. So I pause... reread it and read it again. Then I realize.... Honors Program. Holy fucking shit. The letter goes on about whatthe Honors Program is, basically its all about smart people, doing advanced classes, etc etc. So I'm like way beyond happy. Then I get to the fine print and it says you must have a 3.25 or higher. Then my hopes and dreams in a single second are down the tubes. -flushes the nearest toilet- But from what mom says, I can still fill out the application, cause it wouldn't hurt to try. -sigh- I guess not, but I don't think I'll make it. This is a very big deal for me, I've never been recognized as anything near intelligent. I'd love to be in the Honor's Program, but I'm just not THAT smart. I'd have to get only one C and 2 As (the rest would have to be Bs) In order to get even close to a 3.25. Its just not gonna happen. I'll try but its doubtful. Just thought I'd share that... who says I'm dumb? :P
Then lesse. Oh yea! I got back to work tomorrow. God... I'm gonna die. lol 10am till 7:30pm.... 9 hours of unloading boxes, putting up fixtures, cleaning, sorting.... oh god just kill me. But it won't be too bad cause I won't have to deal with customers till the weekend. Friday I work 2pm till 9pm and Saturday I work 2pm till 10pm (or later depending on who I close with). Should be fun, fun, fun. -deflates- I just don't wanna deal with customers. I hope they put me on cash register.... I hate dealing with people. This is why I need to be working the food sevice industry. A lot less people... -sigh- After Christmas I'll find something better. Either that or talk to Diane and Kathy about making me a shipment monkey. I'd rather do that. Well here's to hoping I don't die tomorrow. I have a half hour lunch... anyone wanna visit me? ^^ Pwease?
Well anyways... have a good rest of the week children! I'm out. Toddles! |
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[Nov. 7th, 2005|11:11 am] |
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Hello all. -waves- Had a good weekend? So did I. ^^
Friday morning I got to sleep in till 9ish. I was very happy about that. heh Then around 11 dad came over with gram and we went out for the afternoon. We went to Olive Garden and Borders. Dad bought me the next book for Fushigi Yugi: Genbu Kaiden and Kare: First Love. They're so juicy and cute... and romantic they make my eyes twitch with glee. I wish I could be like Takiko in Fushigi Yugi... I want 7 hot boys to be my warriors and fall for me. lol Wouldn't that be nice? Ah, oh well. And dad got this awesome Beatles book that had these pictures and stories. He called me last night and he's already way psyched about it. Wish I would've had money to get it for him. -pouts- Either that or buy it for him for X-mas. Oh well.... Then he dropped me off at Krys'. I spent the day at the apartment with her, Tony and Jimmy. We didn't get to do much cause I had to be home by 8ish. So I went home and went to bed.
Saturday I went to school. Its getting better cause everyone in the class talks with each other now. We all know each other much better. I get along really well with the girl that sits in front of me and the girl that sits by the wall. One guy in there is really cute... he was asking me how to do 100! factorial. He's really cuute.. lol Anyways... so I left there and went home. Thank God the teacher gave us our homework during class cause I finished it then and came home and got to sit around. Krys came and picked me up around 2. I was gonna spend the night and now we have a weekly thing of going bowling. Before Jen got there Krys and I did these facial masks that we had bought at Meijer the previous day and when Jen got there we jumped out of the corner and tried to scare her, but the mask dried so we could barely move our mouths. It was funny. We were bored so we painted our bowling shoes with glow in the dark (with blacklights too) nail polish. We did a really good job. We had painted them to go bowling that night but when Krys, Jen and I went there they were closed for some stupid private party. So we checked the Hoffman Lanes and they don't have midnight bowling on Saturdays. We even checked the Laser Tag that was by the Valli Produce but they closed at midnight (it was already ten minutes till 12am). So we went to Anna's where everyone was supposed to meet up anyways and when everyone got there Tony suggested Cue. So we went there. Tony's boss Dr. Chang even came with (we think he likes Anna a lot heh). He had come to the apartment just as Krys, Jen and I were about to leave... he's pretty cute. Nice body.. and he has magic hands. lol He's the head chiropractor. Jimmy might be working with Tony too cause he went for an interview so that way Jimmy and Tony can go to work together and Krys can get more shifts at New Dance. More money that way... so we went to Cue and Jen and I played pool for a bit. Krys came over a few times, and when she did this one time, she told us Karen was there. And another time we saw Kevin. I freaked out and I crouched by the wall and I was like, I am one with the wall! One with the wall!!! lol So we danced a bit and played darts. Karen was so trying to get into Jimmy's pants though. And he just flat out told her, fuck off. And she acted all sad and evenstarted crying. It was really pathetic. So we left because Jimmy said this, "I wanna leave cause one, the cops are here(they were. lol), two, I'm done drinking and three, psycho bitch." So we left and Dr. Chang took us to this awesome Korean kareoke bar. And since Krys, Jen and I were underage, Dr. Chang used his connecion there to get ussin. So we got drunk in the booth and sang till 5 am. I sang Sugar We're Going Down and Dirty Little Secret and Not Gonna Get Us with Krys. I also sang with Anna on Soldier. They made me take a few shots of this nasty drink... it was Korean, but it tasted like water going down they it burned and tasted like hell. I was like... wooo. Jimmy sang Sinatra songs, Tony joined in the middle of like everyone's songs... and Dr Chang got sick. lol
So we went back to Anna's and partied some more, but everyone was far more drunk than Krys and I. Tony was being a dick as usual... oh well. Jen went home beforehand though. Which is good. But yeah we went back to the apartment around 6. I slept in Jimmy's bed. I thought he'd sleep there too but he just slept on the couch. I was like... umm you could've slept with me. I wouldn't have minded. heh But oh well. As a side note... he has a really cute butt. tee hee So I slept till about 9:30 and woke Krys up and she took me home and I went to brunch with mom, Doug and Grandpa. So boring. I came back home, surfed on the compie for a bit then went to sleep for like 4 hours. When I woke up I talked to Dan and we hung out with Jackie and Dan L. I bought Newports for Jackie, and after we dropped her off the boys were saying how crazy she is and how much they don't like her. I had talked to her the entire time she was in the car and she seemed nice to me. She goes to Elk Grove, she's going to be 16 in like a week. She even knows Uncle Billy Boy! Well mostly his brother but when she said, oh yeah! He's crazy. I knew it was our UBB. tee hee Then we went to Baskin Robbins/Dunkin Donuts. I bought a bagel with bacon and cheese and Dan got a Bagel with cream cheese. They kept poking my sides... and they both kept plotting to touch my ass! I used Bunny's quote: "My ass is not a target!!" Then while we were waiting in line Dan huggled me. hehe Its the first time anyone's ever really huggled me. It was like a hug from behind and cuddling. He even rested his head on my shoulder. I knew I was blushing but my make up covered it. But I knew my ears must've been bright red. So when he moved away I rubbed my ears on my shoulders. After that they took me home and Dan walked me to my door again. This time it was like this stare down... lol But we onkly hugged. Ah... oh well. Then I went to bed at 9. Yes 9. I was tired. Emotionally and physically drained..
What a weekend. I will say this though... my last post... -sigh- its true. In love though. Not like I can tell that person I LOVE YOU. Which is wrong cause no one truly loves someone till at least 4 months. But... I am in love. I just hope this time I don't get my heart broken... though its hard to break whats already been broken... v.v Here's to hoping everything turns out.
I want a cookie... more Fushigi Yugi: Genbu Kaiden... a massage... a nice long nap... and a huggle/cuddle session. -pouts-
Till next time children! |
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